adoption

Spring, Break

2015-04-09T21:42:54+00:00 April 9th, 2015|adoption|

Jaden and I were driving back from getting his kindergarten immunization records. He's off. It's our second Spring Break for 2015, a bit more pragmatic. We're getting errands done. When it's just us in the car, he gets to roll down his window; we drive on the freeway, in mild rain, all sorts of times [...]

Happy Mother’s Day

2017-05-18T14:46:10+00:00 May 11th, 2014|adoption|

Did you ever set out with clear sights and end up doing exactly the wrong thing? I've swerved with my 6-year-old, between working to help her face the tragedy of her mom, who not only can't take care of her, but can't even manage a visit or card, and letting her forget about it and just be [...]

The Art of Not Doing

2017-05-18T14:46:31+00:00 December 23rd, 2013|adoption|

It's only the first day of the kids two week vacation, and maybe it's time to admit I'm not as skilled as I'd like to be at relaxing. In my defense, the run-up to Christmas has been quite a sprint: kids' class parties and shows, present shopping, near-misses with Disney Boxes arriving by UPS, fistfuls [...]

Confused and Not Sure

2013-10-21T21:18:25+00:00 October 21st, 2013|adoption, waiting and wanting kids|

Is there anything weirder than everything going right? It's disorienting. I'm a little bit lost. Sure, I've got to wrestle health insurance for the kids. Adoption means they transfer departments, get new names, are "uninsured" as their old selves and put into a new program. It's kind of a hassle. Also we've got to sort [...]

More and More Married

2017-05-18T14:46:52+00:00 September 26th, 2013|adoption, gay dads, holidays and celebrations|

I've been shocked by how changed I feel. I'm living with the same guy and kids, in the same place, same work, same dog, same cat. But a wedding, two adoptions, and a bridezilla reception has really changed how I feel in my life. The power of ceremonies and traditions shouldn't surprise me; there's a [...]

“I Need to Be Connected to You”

2017-05-18T14:47:01+00:00 August 19th, 2013|adoption|

It's incredible how clueless, and then how wise, our kids are. Knowing our daughter for 16 months, some things are so transparent. After a disruptive event, like the social worker who removed her from her mom visits, or something happens very differently than expected, it's easy to predict there will be a meltdown, and sometimes [...]

On the Dotted Line

2017-05-18T14:47:08+00:00 August 13th, 2013|adoption|

I knew our social workers were coming this morning. We were even dressed when they arrived, which isn't always the case. I knew they were bringing paperwork, but I hadn't really thought about it. The 6-year-old needed her lunch for camp made. I was trying to get the 3-year-old to use his proud new kid [...]

Love, Marriage, Kids

2017-05-18T14:47:10+00:00 June 28th, 2013|adoption, gay dads|

I've been dumbstruck by the supreme court ruling that ended up legalizing gay marriage in California. I knew it was coming. I expected jubilation, but have had a more complicated response. This is also the week we met with our adoption social worker. Similarly, it felt sudden, after more than a year of frustrating delays. [...]

Mother’s Day Blues

2013-05-09T11:45:29+00:00 May 9th, 2013|adoption|

For twenty plus years, Mother's Day has been bittersweet for me. It's lovely to remember Mom, but because she's gone it's also a lonely holiday. I help celebrate my wonderful step-mom and friends who are moms. But my mom I celebrate privately, internally. Of course now I see this is small potatoes compared to what [...]

The Great Leap Forward

2017-05-18T14:47:25+00:00 April 30th, 2013|adoption|

Huge news, the hearing was today, and the judge terminated the mother’s parental rights and set adoption into our family as the “permanent plan” for the kids. Now the adoption phase begins. This means a new social worker and I’m not sure what else, but it sounds like mostly dotting the I’s and getting everything [...]

Some Positive Points for Us

2017-05-18T14:47:26+00:00 April 15th, 2013|adoption, parenting|

We just switched our daughter from a "star/sticker" system to a "points/rewards" plan, and the difference is dramatic, in her and in me. I've decided it's time to award myself some points! But first I should explain. A sticker on the calendar for a successful day was a zero-sum game; while the intent was to [...]

The Deliciousness of Normal

2017-05-18T14:47:27+00:00 April 5th, 2013|adoption|

I'm not surprised, but proud as can be to report that the kids' developmental assessments, required as part of the foster care adoption process, showed them to be completely age appropriate in their motor, social, and academic skills. Not surprised, because these kids' resilience and ability to thrive has thrilled me since I met them. Despite [...]

And Another Delay

2017-05-18T14:47:32+00:00 March 19th, 2013|adoption, waiting and wanting kids|

Our five-year-old has a reliable reaction to any surprise in her routine.Something causes us to reverse activity 1 and activity 2. The place is closed. They're out of her favorite X, Y, or Z. She is not pleased. Sometimes she puts on a grim face and powers through it. Sometimes there's wailing. But it's never [...]

Ready for Fatherhood: I Did Not Steal This

2017-05-18T14:47:37+00:00 February 28th, 2013|adoption|

We had three social workers visiting the kids one afternoon this week, and I was a mess. I realize that it's time to deal with my authority issues. There are big things at stake, of course. About 18 days from now, a judge will settle the main legal question remaining before we can adopt the [...]

Waiting

2013-01-10T21:51:19+00:00 January 10th, 2013|adoption, waiting and wanting kids|

In what seemed like the endless time between being approved as foster dads and getting matched with our kids, I yearned so much for the wait to be over. I thought, as I always do, that this "next thing" would be the beginning of a new life. Of course it was. It's hard to clearly [...]